It’s been a while since I’ve shown my face around these here parts. How the heck are you? I know, I’ve been scarce… super lame. Sorry about that. Granted, I have many solid reasons as to why I’ve been quiet (you know, things like: work, kids, life, Netflix – just rewatched Bridgerton btw and am now referring to myself as ‘Your Grace’… that sort of thing) But, excuses aside, I realise that I’ve been pretty slack on the blogging front over the past year and I need to get back into gear. So here’s a young 2022 update for you.
But first, let’s start here: 2021 was a doozy. There, I said it. It wasn’t the best year, but it also wasn’t the worst (yeah, I’m looking at you 2020, come at me bruh).
2021 was a weird year. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I totally appreciated the fact that we all made it out of 2020 alive. And I was super grateful for all the good that we had in our lives. But I’ve never been this inundated with life-related dramatics before.
2021 reminded me of that friend that you are super excited to take with to a party and then you immediately regret it once you get there.
Some of the dramatics I had to, you know, endure include the usual forage of bills to pay, a couple of friendships to manage or release, a lot of weight to lose (I mean, aside from the friendships being released) and then there’s the job front, where I almost morphed into a “mean girl” because I so enjoy matching every stern question with an even more sarcastic answer. Let’s just say, 2021 definitely tested my Christianity.
And not only because we haven’t been able to attend church in-person. Even though we do our best to maintain our relationship with God, but not being able to attend definitely took a toll on us. (BTW our church IS having in-person services, but I have 3 children under the age of 8 years old and 2 of them don’t do well at Sunday School yet, so online services make more sense for my family dynamic right now.)
Aside for that, I found myself diving head first into my work and family, without allowing any quiet time or moments of reflection. A recipe for disaster, if you ask me. Anyways, by the end of 2021, I was malfunctioning.
You know what I mean – short-circuiting… cutting out… not computing… not performing on optimal level. You get the gist. Ek was so bietjie bedornerd.
I had become so programmed to “do, do, do” that I totally forgot how to simply “be”. It reminded me of a little saying that I had once heard about us being human BEings and not human DOings… yeah, I know, a “kapooof” moment for me too. When you’re more focused on doing and not focused enough on being who God calls you to be… well, a short-circuit is usually on the horizon for you, Sally.
And short-circuit, I did. To the point where I sometimes found myself just laying on my bed, and staring at the ceiling. My body felt the toll (giiiirl, let me tell you, I got joint-pain in places that I didn’t even know were joints). I definitely needed a break.
Anyways, at the start of the festive season, I decided to unplug as much as I could. This meant logging out of my emails and logging back into family life. One would think that this is something easy to do. For me, it definitely was not. My spreadsheet brain doesn’t allow me to just chill. I constantly have to be busy in order to feel, I don’t know, useful, I guess.
A whole 3 weeks later and I’m starting to feel refreshed and ready for the new year. I’m determined to roundhouse kick 2022 in the face (so aggressive, who is this girl lol) because I will NOT have another crappy year again! Anyone else on this same level of passion?
I’m also thoroughly determined to not look like I am 5 months pregnant when I’m not. I mean, I am a huge “body positivity” stan, but let’s be honest, when you cant even make it up one flight of stairs without huffing and puffing, then something needs to be done. I need to start taking my health a lot more serious this year.
Other things I have my heart set on is: this blog right here! Man, I miss blogging. I miss it because I like that get to say exactly how I feel here. Social media is such a fickle space, and although I’ve been trying to put a lot more focus on those platforms, I realise that my whole heart lies with this blog. So expect a lot more blog posts in the coming future.
Well, that’s all from me. I’d love to hear your thoughts on the type of blog posts you’d like me to write. Please share your thoughts in the comment section below. And with that, I bid thee adieu.
Luchae aka Your Grace