Preggy update: I’ve been especially hard on myself the past few days. Why? Well, mainly because I am STILL pregnant and I don’t know how to make it stop! If you recall from my previous posts, my doc would like to induce me later this week because this kid is a giant and I really want to give birth naturally. So, for the past few days, I’ve been trying out old housewives remedy’s and modern mama theory’s to try to get baby Jo to make an appearance. And still nothing.
I was particularly frustrated this weekend and I said so too. I mean, hello, huge pregnant woman over here! I feel like I’m permanently in pain and/or out of breath. I was just DONE with being nice about it! And I told Hubstopher exactly that! Well, him and just about anyone else who cared to listen. “This child needs to come out now!” (Yep, I know that pregnancy is a beautiful gift and that I was acting like a brat. My story gets better, I promise…)
Until I got a wake up call last night. My darling hubstopher grabbed me firmly by the hands, looked me in the eye and said, “you’re going to listen to me now!” He proceeded to tell me that I need to STOP trying to control everything – including my body and this baby. (Don’t blame me, blame my spreadsheet brain) He said that God has us covered – and that when we try to take things into our own hands, it’s like we’re not believing that God will make sure that the BEST thing happens for us in this situation.
He also said that whether I get induced, or if I must have a C-Sec, or whatever the outcome, it’s okay. It’s going to be okay. Just breathe and let it go. “Jonah will come exactly when he’s suppose to, exactly how he’s suppose to!”
Well, after I got over the shock that the guy actually made sense and that he was right this one time (ONLY this one time! Ha!) I realized that I had been putting too much energy into trying to induce labour myself. Instead, I could be chilling in bed, enjoying these last few days of my pregnancy and watching Grey’s Anatomy, yo. (I literally started watching like, 2 days ago… it’s interesting so far…)
So that’s where I’m at right now. Taking it easy, NOT Googling ways to induce labour and just allowing my baby boy to be who he wants to be in this moment. And it seems he is still quite keen on staying on the inside for a while. I’m trying to savor every movement (even the painful ones) and making sure I get a lot of QT in with my curly girl.
I must admit, I love my spreadsheet brain, but it sometimes just over-complicates things. Thankfully, I have a hubstopher around who is not afraid to tell me the (hard) truth, when I need to hear it. It’s so sweet that husbands can also be right sometimes. Isn’t it?
Clip note: Pic above taken of 38 week preggers me, by the wonderful Odette Johaar of O So Inspired blog.